Advents (New York City)

Negative Space

This is not me, a casualty
The light you shine it would be all I see
But I close my eyes every time

Now I'm blind
Because I don't want to feel the pain
I went blind
Because I always accept the blame
I went blind
It's the only way that I feel safe
Shame is me, so just forget my name

I'm too numb, can't save me from it
Feel the turning in my stomach
You just sat and watched me plummet down
You’re a monster now

Safe to say
That you will never come back down
So when I waste away
The tides are all I have left to watch me drown

I hope you choke on every single word
You put your ego first
How could you save yourself when you’re nobody
You couldn't find enough to take away from me
You fucking make me sick

I've seen your kind before
You'll do anything to settle up a score
Get what you want and yet you’re still craving more
You lived with nothing learned
You'll get what's yours
This is a negative space
That's why you hide your face
You could never live with what you create
That's why you hide your face

Safe to say
That you will never come back down
So when I waste away
The tides are all I have left to watch me drown

You’re what's killing me
You’re what's killing me
But I'll never fall asleep

Now I'm blind
Cause I don't want to feel the pain
I went blind
Cause I always accept the blame
I went blind
It's the only way that I feel safe
Shame is me, so just forget my name

Safe to say
That you will never come back down
So when I waste away
The tides are all I have left to watch me drown

I'm too numb, can't save me from it
Feel the turning in my stomach
You just sat and watched me plummet down
You’re a monster now